Making Time to Play

Happy Leap Day. So after a long day, more training, more education and basically a new attitude to change the world I went to see my ex-sweetie to get my stuff. It was fine but it was kinda sad. A little uncomfortable and she sure felt awkward around me. I could tell. No surprises but it made me think of this song:

At first she's gonna come on strong
Like she'll love you all night long
Like it's going out of style
Then she'll leave you with a smile

Your gonna give her all your heart
Then she'll tear your world apart
Your gonna cry a little while
Still she'll leave you with a smile

Well you can't help but wonder
Why you can't help but love her
But you can't help but love her
And all that hurtin' was more than worth it
It's written all over your face

One day you'll pass her on the street
With that guy you used to be
She'll say hello and walk on by
Then she'll leave you with a smile

Well you can't help but wonder
Why you can't help but love her
But you can't help but love her
And all that hurtin' was more than worth it
It's written all over your face

At first she's gonna come on strong
Like She'll love you all night long
Like it's going out of style
Then she'll leave you with a smile

Ah, she's gonna love you
She gonna leave you with a smile
Ah, she's gonna love you
She gonna leave you with a smile

I know it is a country song by George Strait but still when i look back all I have is a smile. So thank my mighty stars I had my friends again and another indoor soccer game. This was followed but macdonalds and beer all at the same time. Can't think of the last time this happened. I'm so happy for these two as they are getting married next summer and i get to be part of their happy day. They both show me how good the world is and how much joy is possible in the world. Nothing is every easy but once again the bumps in the road are always worth the journey.

Speaking of journey. It looks like I'm planning to go to Newfoundland again in June 2005. Very very exciting. I'm picking Newfoundland over Mexico as of today.

Cheers world. Thanks for the sunshine and the rain. I need both to grow

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isn't hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

Imagine no possessions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'M a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

I have quite the view on what we can do with the world. Just finished two days with the Canadian Red Cross. Training to make the Moose Jaw a safer place. I watched a video with Lennon's Song in it. So powerful when you actual think about what he is saying and see the effects the abuse of power can have on people. I'm going to join him.

I spend today with my bestest friend at her place. It has been a while since I stayed with her and her sweetie. As always we had a blast and i watched my first indoor soccer game. I also became a bigger fan of Keith's tonite. It's true that those who like it like it a lot

Two things that hit me hard was that we should never doubt that a small group of people with big goals can change the world. Basically it is the only thing that has. My life is a big classroom and we can never change this. The moment we live something we are learning it, whether we like it or not.
So all I can say is never stop thinking and always imagine. Imagine the possibilities. Isn't great!

Funny how life takes us, prepares us and then decides to throw a curve ball. Good thing i'm left handed and can still hit it. Skill and not being afraid to take one in the chin goes along way at the plat and in life.

Right now i'm in the batter's box with all kind of pitches coming my way. Nothing but opportunity. BUT don't be afraid to strike out. If you do leave your bat at home. Hey the best hitter on hit the ball 3 out of 10 times.

The world is a big snow globe right now. Huge flakes today but it is so pretty. I'm on my way to learn more about making the world a better and safer place. I like that.

Last night after I finished my blog, I had an amazing online conversation with a truly spectacular person. I said we were on the same page, but she corrected me as we are on the same sentence. So much to relate to and both are members of St.Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band and both have experienced a broken heart. Our promise is not to be a heartbreaker. Big things are in store for us. The past has shaped us to conquer the future.

The world is not a lonely place and I’m never alone. My friends are fantastic and good surprises happen. Lots of smiles in the giving and receiving department.

So far I learned that there never seems to by a why. The answer is always just because. The why you are looking for sometime cannot be understood and it just leaves more questions and more confusion. If you want to worry about it, lose sleep over it then ask why. It you want playtime to continue then just answer because and carry on. Take a new path because ask yourself sometimes why and you don’t always have an answer either. I feel if you don’t move on you will always be a day late and a dollar short.

I like the way I’ve made my bed to lye in.

Today just an ordinary day. Then roadtrip out to the prairie small town. Great meeting and great feed back. Ate too many cookies and to much coffee. Afterward a nice drink at, were else, Bobby's Place. Funny thing is why do we acquire a taste for things? It's not like we try them and like them the first time at all. What is the appeal, do we have some kind of switch? For example I find it hard to believe that the first taste of beer you took you actually liked. I mean come one, it is not the best tasting thing to start with but after a while we love the taste of it. Same with other alcohol or smoking. No way can you tell me that the first time someone tried a cigarette they actually enjoyed it. After coughing and turning green they kept it up why. Somethings just have some kinda control over us. What is that all about. If you have a bad meal you don't keep eating it or ordering/cook it again do you weird. Chocolate, sugar and sweets are just perfect right from the start, this makes sense with addictions but I never thought about "acquired tastes" until I had a conversation with it over a pint.

funny thing isn't it....maybe that is what happens with to much sugar and coffee. the mind begins to wonder...a healthy thing if you ask me.

playtime alert..............anger is only one letter away from danger!

So today was an interesting day. You can't fool Karma. Confirmed a time to get my stuff back and we both had a few interesting things to say. Information and knowledge is always overwhelming to me I guess. Karma kinda kicked me in the ass for being selfish and Karma kick her in the ass for also being selfish and a little materialistic. Money will never make you happy. It will keep you from being unhappy but never happy. I don't mean this in a negative way but it was nice to find out that it wasn't easy for both of use. The decisions made were for the best and I still have someone I can talk to. She has good new in the buying a condo in the future and that is good. Me I have the possibilities of unlimited amounts of paths, roads, deadends and surprises ahead.

I got on of the best emails today from my someone who I always seem to be totally in synch with. We always seem to help each other out and know what the other is feeling all the time. This is really cool because we do it all with words. One of those little things again that make such a difference. She gets what life is all about. I'll quote her "it all about effort".

Tuesday is the only day that is going to be quiet. On the road again tomorrow and then a big professional workshop for more training all weekend. It will be long but I love to learn. I get to stay with my bestest friend. A small piece of serenity.

Today is a new day, a blank page, a clean sheet of ice or a clean washed hair. The possibilities of what I do with this is endless. The only limitation is my imagination. I plan on living until 100 yrs. Will I make it, not sure, but life is not the destination it is the journey.

Here's to the journey.

Well one thing for sure is that you will never see me on TSN playing billards. Tonite I was hurting, hurting like a branded calf. I had my moments but just not my night. Maybe i'm in pool overload. Not sure but everyday is a new chance to make it better. Just turn the page and keep writing your story.

Monday is great because everyone gets to hear about the weekend and you hear so many versions of it from others. I love the rumour mill because if you've been reading i'm to busy having fun to start or listen to rumours.

I talked to my ex-sweetie today and it was nice. We've moved on to the friendship and both our lives are moving forward. Just what we both deserve. I'm getting excited about the summer and the summer games i'm planning so that is a big responsibility but worth every second. I gonna say this but I believe this.....I'm Fun....no big suprise but i bring something to the table that many people can't. I can be dead on serious and totally committed to the issue but then i can be laid back and bring a smile to your face.

Right now some is just waiting for me to make them smile....

So life is best understood if you don't plan it I guess. Why worry. Worrying is just like sawing dust in my world.

Last night was great. Started off with pizza and went straight up hill after that. Had a blast at the fun pool tournament with co-workers and ended up finishing fourth over all. Not to bad but I wish I had one shot back against our monday night partners. Down to the Royale for an all out dance off. I told you after my cardio last night I could go on forever. I think everyone that I wanted to be downtown was there last night. I even had to do a shot with a bachlorette party. I flashed my smile at a few so we will see what happens with that. Prospects? maybe but the focus was on fun last night.

So after the bar closed...had an interesting group return to my house. My buddy, a drunk and emotional co-worker and a radio station personality. We watched a little TV then everyone left or went to bed. All around great night. No stories to tell just pure fun.

It kinda gives you a whole new perspective on a world that focuses on the 90% negative and not the 10% positive. If you ask me the world is 90% positive and 10% negative. So my fun advice today is to take the long road and walk it....but don't forget to stop and smell the roses

and one the seventh day scott rested

Sweet is never sweet without the sour.

How true is this? Like the rows of candy in the store. We don't always know what we like but we always know what we don't like. Is this true in life. of course. On our road decisions are made simply by knowing what we don't want. It is a great start up the mountain.

So today is going to be tummy tickling. First of all i just finished 45 minutes of cardio and feel like i could go all night. Hockey Day in Canada and a pool tournament tonite with a bunch of people. It is funny how my eyes are open to a whole bunch of things that I see since i'm single. I don't think i've looked at so many women's faces and then glance at their left hand.

I guess the candy i'm looking at is not for the mouth but for my eyes.

Mood: excited
Song: I Believe in Love - The Darkness

Ok just for kicks before we went out tonite I loaded all my mp3's and set it to random. A little bit of fun for once here. Ok here is the first 20 songs that were played

1) CCR- Suzie Q (good start i guess)
2) Dr. Hook - Freaker's Ball (very interesting song to say the least)
3) Blue Rodeo - Head over Heals (Melancholy)
4) Wide Mouth Mason - Midnight Rain (Ahh Grey Cup Festivals)
5) Sugar Ray - Mr Bartender (I'll have a double)
6) Cream - White Room (with black curtains...ok I'll stop)
7) Led Zeppelin - Been a Long Time (Fitting because I need to rock & roll)
8) Pink Featuring Redman - Get the Party Started (Picked it up for sure)
9) Great Big Sea - End of the World (Not today, maybe later)
10) Tim McGraw - Indian Outlaw (Two step anyone?)
11) Watchmen - Any Day Now (What happend to this great band?)
12) Shania Twain - Who's Bed Have Your Boots Been Under (Not mine!)
13) Fastball - Out of my Head (How could of I ever been so blind?)
14) Willy Neslon - Crazy (Hey he wrote this song Patsy sang it)
15) Linkin Park - Somewhere I belong (Fantastic)
16) Temptations - Build me up Buttercup (If you don't know the words,learn)
17) Tea Party - Messenger (Ahhh Grey Cup Festivals)
18) Queens of the Stone Age - Go with the Flow (Kick Ass song!)
19) The Odds - Someone who is cool (my search continues)
20) Andrew WK - Take it Off (this guy is amazing)

Interesting...some revelations is that no pop, no boy bands, no rap, no r&b and no love songs. 20 out of 2543....well that is what set the mood of a good night of pool...hope you enjoy this station.

I read this yesterday and it hit me quite hard. There is no silence between friends, but rather voices that only the heart can hear. I have been in contact with a lot of my friends lately and each has a certain piece to my puzzle. Each piece maybe bigger or smaller but all has as important role in completing my puzzle. Those reading this…you know who you are.

Yesterday I had a great opportunity to sit down with a friend and talk about life. What it is where it is going and what it has been. We both have what we want and enjoy our jobs but we just need something more that we are striving for. It is in the works for us but in the mean time we have little to worry about other that ourselves (But since she has a new Jeep Liberty that makes life pretty darn good) This was quite relevant as we went for supper with her two nephews and while they were very cute and sweet…they are basically the life of their parents. I will be there someday but just not today. Some people don’t realize how lucky they are and that time and a life together should not mean making plans to get away from each other. I don't want that in a relationship.....

So back at Bobby’s for more Honey Brown with good company last night. I’m becoming a regular and the cute waitress keeps smiling at me…I kinda like that. So the weekend and all it’s glory. Again unlimited potential…ah so got me thinking about the rest of my life…what kinda a fool doesn’t think about it?

Thought of the day....I wish people would mind there own business but those people that don't....don't have anything themselves to mind so they need some excitement. That's my thought because I’m too busy caring about me to care/worry/spread rumors about someone else. Sorry, too busy loving me.

So I had a great time with my family yesterday. They give something that no one else can give me. They give something i need and also show me what i want in life. I wish I could see them more often but since we can't it makes these meetings more special. Basically what they did is picked up my "luck cup" so it is ready to be filled up again. The last 3 weeks it was knocked over a bit. My family did a great job on me. We talked a while about revenge and how you never win with this attitude. While you are plotting and worrying about it...the other person is enjoying life to much to care what you are doing and get the satisfaction that you are still stressed. Let Karma take care of it if you ask me.

So I was so spoiled yesterday. Shopping, resturants and the spa. Fantastic...felt like was in high school all over again. I must admit i like shopping. It can be for anything and shopping with women is fun as long as i get to see what you are trying on. I even won money at the Casino and enjoyed ladies night at Bobby's for the first time. A truly perfect day of leisure

Well keeping busy is not going to be a problem for me at all. Have all kinds of people to do things with and activities with. I did have a trip to Edmonton planned...kinda a romantic getaway but I gave my Oiler tickets to my sister and her husband as it is not in the works for me. They found the love and they will continue...my way of spreading the love I have to give.

well after a busy day today the weekend is full again. Unlimited possibilities...stay tuned for play by play updates

Well back to work after a fantastic weekend. I basically had a four day holiday in Moose Jaw. I learned about my friends, who I can talk to, who I can trust and a better understanding of what people think they want but don't really know. Mystery, uncertainty and hope...It is what keeps us going. If not for these things I would definitely change the channel.

Still rolling in my karma gift and it gets better. I had a great email from a blue eyed beauty that put things in perspective. Now I'm getting company for three days. My house is going to be busy for once instead of the solitude and silence that exists in my every footstep. This could of not happened at a better time.

Well today is like a sweet apple...The sweetest hand picked apple from my tree in the backyard. By that I mean it is warm and sunny just like my outlook. I guess I have this new discovered freedom that oozes with potential. Last night at pool we created a upcoming events list so stay tuned for more detail about the "Time to play coming events" Let me tell ya it is full of stuff for the next 5 months. An ugly ugly win in pool last night but our team is rockin. Viva La Vegas this year baby.

Today I spent time with a student in my former study of recreation. It is so neat to see me 8 years ago. How I have evolved and how I have been molded. It is best of both worlds when you can still be molded but have the hindsight of experience. That is were I sit right now....boy is this ever a comfy chair.

Maybe you can tell but I'm getting excited....isn't it contagious :)

Well finally closure and communication...what happened...what I expected. I am single once again. I am not surprised or sad because it was becoming reality. Something happened in a short time to end what we had. What that was I will never know but it is better this way. I had to really deep down think about the relationship and I think someone is looking out for me. Still, a life lesson that I hope few people half to experience.

Song of the moment - 54-40 - She's a Jones...why because I tripping on a dream that someday i will meet my Jones.

It's not about looking at each other
But together in the same direction
Like they did in the golden age
They put their lives in the trust of heaven
And the kindest words she'll ever know are still waiting to be said

I'm not sad today at all I feel refreshed. Well the best I can for having my name in the sand washed away from someone's life. A beauty that must die.

So why so happy...because people out there get what life is about. It is about trust, truth and simple pleasures. I love giving gifts because of the reaction and the feeling it gets me. I return the same feelings. You don't half to spend $800.00 dollars on me (but i sure felt special). As long as their is effort and love behind the gift i will love it.

I also got my Karma gift yesterday. Just when i needed it. Look out world...here i come....Something big is in store for me.

Play time restored

Everything seemed back to normal last night. Out with friends who I have not hung out with in a while. A great time to say the least. I wanna be a regular at Bobby's Old World Tavern. Something so warm and appealing to me there. No big productions, no meat market, no look at me...just simple real fun. Kinda like me i guess.

Nothing is really new with me because i don't know what is always going on. I'm wandering right now and it is good and bad. I plan stuff and like an idea what is going on....so kinda confused right now...i think I will leave it at that. Maybe I will have a better understanding soon. I think that is owed to me.

Last night at the Royale was great seeing all the groups of people out. V'day was not mentioned at all and everyone was out with there friends. Only problem was the band and the music was exactly the same as Friday night with more Outkast.

Tonite is mine and I am mine....nothing more, nothing less. Karma has a treat for me. Just need to wait for it.

Ok this is a big thing and of course I was not home....communication in the form of a phone call...and a message...so what does this mean? No idea but I sure wish I could of talked with her. Of course she is gone for the rest of the day and I am to. Suddenly my heart beats and is heavy again. Up or down the mountain. Not sure. Today has just gotten better and worse. Does Valentine's Day have anything to do with it? So many questions.

Play time restored or destroyed stay tuned....

Last night at the office party there was 21 offices trying to win a trip for four the mexico...we made it to the final two and lost. Damn...mexico with four great people. excuse me while i cry over my spilled milk...well maybe my spilt beer.

So i wore a shirt that my girl and I picked out. It was very popular and totally trendy but it sure did the trick. I stood out especially when everyone finds out that i can dance. my dance card is always full.

Someone sure did some interesting wiring when creating me. Yesterday was all that i imagined it to be. Good times, great friends and undless wandering around. Nothing can ever beat great conversation, followed by shaking it on the dance floor. The only problem is that i am getting sick of Outkast. Too much everywere...never felt this way about Black Eyed Peas....but I always get retarded in here. Rocked the Royale last night and ended up walking home (by choice) in the beauty of winter with huge snowflakes slowly falling down.

Today is V'day and who i thought was going to be my valentine is awol and unresponsive. So due to this, I found a valentine to share today with. She will be having a good time on the rock and i will have a good time here. I feel happy to have a sweet valentine to make me happy in my thoughts. It is kinda a necessary to keep you smiling when the marketing and questions mount .

I have great friends and one in particular is great. She always looks out for me even if I don't need it. I also look out for her as her life is a tale of two cities. Just hope she finds the happiness that she deserves. There is always a spot on the dance floor together. There is nothing that we can't talk about and i'm glad we've caught up with each other after a while of not hanging out. It's fun when she want to be the centre of attention...

So again today is going to be great. Friends in town who i have not seen for a while all excited about tonite. I went for a run this morning to get my car and so love running in the snow with the tunes blaring. I am a machine

My playweekend is heating up. Don't have anyone in my sights just yet...just happy with scooter right now.

Had a great road trip last night followed by the best meal ever....late night drive through, always hits the spot. Conversation forever on all kinds of stuff and had the pleasure of seeing a billion stars so bright in the country and watched the northern lights dance on the way home. It seems so daunting that the world is so big but just think about what one person can accomplish.

I'm happy today...again. Next four days are a world of possibility. So much going on and I found out that my relationship is put on hold because my sweet is working 79 hours each week. Kinda makes me wonder but all systems are go with me. Best news is I have a valentine...bad news is she is 5000 miles away. Still smiles all around.

I love giving advice to people about play and recreation. My favorite line in university was that I am majoring in recreation...no seriously that was my major recreation administration. Now people give me credit and respect for my knowledge in the subject...to cool.

I heard a line last night that some people are a day to late and a dollar short. Not this guy...as indicated i'm always on. It is so funny how everyone always focuses on the negative of the present but the past is great. full of memories because in those moments we take what matter to us. I have that retrospective feeling right now about the last 4 months. They were great. My life is great right now and as Shania says, it can only go up from here.

In for a big playday today. Anyone interested in playing with me? I'll always be playfully yours....

I learned something interesting yesterday at a harassment seminar. Nothing to do with harassment…just that you need to remember that when you point your finger at someone there is always 3 pointing back at you. This is so true, because when you start pointing fingers, you start defusing blame …but everyone needs to take responsibility. My view is build up some skin, take what is said, fix it and move on. My body is so not flexible but my mind is.

Went for lunch yesterday with a friend and realized how good life really is. so much freedom. I’ve had a set personal back and feel like it is going no where. Communication Breakdown?….only on one end and that’s all that matters. Just need some closure on the subject so I can carry on or move on. Fair statement if I ever heard one.

So my play factor was enhanced yesterday with one hour of skating last night. I could get use to that. I am a man “In Motion” and my body tells me so. Stiff ab muscles are a great thing as long as you are not sneezing. Roads are still bad but I think a roadtrip to riverhurst is on order tonight for some professional development

When it comes to life I’m always turned on. Ready for anything pretty much anytime….ain’t nothing gonna break my stride.

Woh, as in a Nemo woh. Blizzard part two around here and no one is going no were today. Kinda like me I guess. Made some small steps to reestablish communication but only with email....kinda get the feeling things are better but we are no longer on the same path. So my week of professional development is being postponed by all this weather. Two meetings cancelled and many fires to be put out around here.

Today is a HUGE day here and a day I am so looking forward to. No smoking in public places. No more smoke in the bars or resturants. Fantastic for me and my friends.

I woke up at 2:00 am today and have no idea why. Maybe I was dreaming something and had to flee. All I can say is that exercise is wonderful. If exercise was a pill it would be the number one prescription given by doctors. I still have a vision of running this summer. I'm making great strides to it. 2003 was the best year so I need something to look forward to in 2004. I will look forward to me this year if nothing else.

Listened to Train yesterday and Something more so caught my attention because it is how I am feeling. Dealing with a "lost soul" is not my idea of a great relationship......

And someday you will see
All the more you want
All the more you'll need me
All the while I'll be on to something more
And all the more you want
All the more you'll need me
All the while I want something more
I want something more
I want something more than this

So in the meantime the play factor pill is highlighted, after all after every blizzard there is beauty as things settle down. Maybe I have something more, maybe my angel has arrived, she just needs to find her wings..... Hope, the human hug.

I feel like my old self right now. Last night was great at pool as everyone was there and we had some great conversation. We are also building up to the weekend. I am so sick of Valentines Day ads. How come every guy needs to buy a gift but the women are just objects of desire or appreciation. Not sure but no need to worry about that right now....

Trust the key component to a relationship. No matter what the context is with out trust you will never know if it is the perfect relationship. I am losing trust in my relationship right now. This may be that I have not heard from her in two weeks but also that i'm begining to feel that the trust of being their for each other is fading.

Move on....ok that makes sense, after all what happened to me was very mean and suprising, why do I want this back? I'm not by all means a charity case and need to hang on to everything I have. I have so much to offer so why worry. No way not me...move on. Flip this around and think about this. If she figures out what she wants she will is willing to committe and trust is restored. Will this happen? Only time will tell. Right now the heavy heart of worry has dissappeared. All aboard train destined unknown, get off of taking a break train.

Must admit my pool skills are much better, but i still need just a bit more to finish players off. I'm almost thinking to much and that is becoming a problem. I just need to use the force, the might pool gods force, to help me along.

Well forcast is for a blizzard today. Well see how it turns out. Why is it that the weather holds a string to your emotions? I never learned that in anatomy.

I keep having the same dream before I fall asleep, I keep thinking I won the 32.5 million Super 7. However my life did not change all that much. Funny thing about a dream is you cannot control what is going on....link to life or what. You can mold it or shape it but cannot control it. Is that not what all the fuss is about.

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

foo fighters music. Heard this last night on the grammy's and it struck home. Time like these time and time again? Life goes on again and again and we must keep learning, giving and loving. It is how I feel. Sure hope everyone else does to. I sure was happy when coldplay won last night. Really treasure their albums as they are musical talent. No big front or production just good music with a message.

Felt quite good about myself and Moose Jaw yesterday at our frolic in the frost. Quite a few people at the skating party with alright weather. All and all improvement to be made but a success none the less. As for pool well lets just say that I was a little fish in a small tank. Enough said.

This week and weekend oooze with possibilities professionally and personally. Can't wait to find out what is going to happen.....because my mind is like a saskatchewan prairie.....green and wide open....waiting for a seed to be planted.

I made a decision to stay in last night and enjoy my house and all that I have to offer. I feels good to walk around and say wow look at what I have. Why stay in well I felt like slacking, I turned Saturday into Sunday because Sunday is a big day with pool, a skating party and friends. Saturday was nothing so I left it at that.

I felt like a kid yesterday. Watched Dazed and Confused on TV and it brought me back to a time when the worries of the world were not so big. The biggest problem was finding something to do. Still a challenge but not the biggest conquest of my life right now. Then All-Star weekend was on and boom back to a kid and this is why I feel play is so important. I could go on and on about it but I just think it is the greatest thing for someone to do. It makes you cry and appreciate who you are and why you've become who you are.

Nervous, why? I have no idea but I still feel like I've done something wrong. the reason, still no phone call on my relationship right now. I'm playing the strong, senstive boyfriend waiting in my thoughts. I'm not giving up however time is starting to be my friend and my enemy.

So today is going to be great. Great weather, hot chocolate, skating, pool, supper with my friends and the chance that communication will be established. Anticipation....gotta love it. Reality....gotta live it.

Make a few phone calls and you will be suprised what happens. The word is out that I am fun. No shocking relation to me however but still a feather in my hat. So last night, a friend who I have not gone out with for a while had to decide does she come out with us or does she go for coffee with her other friends that would not be going out with us. Decision made on, what else, fun and play factor. Score one to play as she came out with us.

Bobby's place is a definite lust for me as the old world with import beer is so appealing. It adds the art of class and eligance that is not found on River Street. The Rockin Royale ahhh, playtime, the band was great and the 80's metal never ever goes out of style especially with anykind of fireworks. I did enjoy myself with my friends however I still have to admit I am missing my girl. Conversation revolved around the fact that there is something to be said about life when you know you are loved. Yes there is, yes there is.

Ok so back to my feather in my hat. Found out that I am a good kisser. Hmmm really, found this out from a conversation from and event over 2 years ago, but these statements still remain to this day. Funny thing is I don't really want anyone else right now to have a chance to find out. Still the more I talk to people the better I feel and learn about myself. Hey the hardest thing for a fish to understand is that it lives in water. Think about that for a while and then look in the mirror.

So when I got home, there was a message on the phone from someone who has not called me in a long time. I'm beginning to feel that I will always be loved. So my day will consist of whatever I want to do. Not a bad thing but not necessary a good thing either. Score today a tie

So what an interesting life we live. So many choices but so many choices we can't make for our own happiness. It is amazing how other people have such an affect on our life both good and bad. A total nuture world I guess. As for me well I'm stuck right now. Waiting on the word of someone who I was climbing a mountain with. Now I'm just stuck here waiting for when the climb will continue or just head back down the mountain by myself. What do I do? I have no idea, like I said I'm stuck. I want to keep climbing because the view was and continues to be fantastic, but I may have to move to another mountain. I've done this once before and not looking forward to it. It is really hard when you find what you want and it is taken away for no real reason. My friend lost her job last week in the same circumstance. Thanks Ms. World

My favorite line in the world is "life is what happens while you are making other plans." Well life sure happened to me.

Tonite is friday and presents itself with endless possibilities. Two invitations so far and who knows maybe I'll get that special pull up the mountain or the pull down. Roll the dice but I'm ready to ride again.

Making time to play. What a silly statement. As kids that is all we do and that is how we learn. As adults, we are do mature, to busy and to important to play. Well it time to get playing, as we do it everyday and will continue to do it everyday. How else do you expect to grow? Play Ball!