Making Time to Play

Tomorrow at 9:00 am....10 km run. Second kick at the cat and while my training schedule has been off this last week I'm ready to go. Shooting for 52 minutes.

I think I'm back...actually no I am back. Met all my deadlines and I'm back. Look out world.

I'm off. No doubt about it. Life has me and is winning and I'm losing. No better way to put it; I'm off. To much work, to little sleep, poor diet and that ache in the heart.

So looking forward to June being over. What a terrible month. I need something good to happen to me. Something to knock me over that is unexpectedly good. My run on Thursday will produce some joy but once again self joy.

Ball game tonite was an easy victory but still I played well below what I wanted. Still off.

Ok so my life is like a Britney Spears Everytime Video. Someone dies and someone is born. Geed is gone but my niece or nephew is on the way. Funny I had that dream were I saw all my friends again and it came true. Just not the way I wanted it to.

Heard this song by Michel Branch today and it hit me in a way that stopped me in my tracks. No need to worry about me but still I have a little superhero syndrome right now.

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Here's to July and it's possibilities.

Ok the weekend is over now the hard part comes. Life will never be the same but it will be good again. I heard a lot of stories about Geed from all kinds of people. My sister and I made it through the eulogy but the whole weekend was just a blur. It was really nice to see everyone and talk to those who had a important imprint on your life.

Thanks to everyone for their comments, thoughts and prayers.

Well things are more real here at home but as I said you need the sour to know what sweet is. I'm feeling happy and sad. Happy you say...yes happy because I found out that I'm going to be Uncle Scott. Yes my sister is expecting. Feel like the circle of life. Someone leaves but something new is here. Very excited but need to get through this weekend to enjoy.

My sister and I are doing the eulogy. One of the greatest speeches I'll ever make.

Life is waiting for you. Oh yeah Happy Birthday Mom. I love you.

Not to sure what I can say right now. New feelings and emotions going through my mind right now. My Geed passed away. Now for everyone that does not know what "Geed" means it is grandpa in Ukrainian. My Geed....I sure loved him. Never was there a time that I did not enjoy visiting him, listening to his stories or doing anything to make his life better. He lived the kinda life that makes me proud to have my last name. His health was in decline but still I just saw him 2 weeks ago at his 60th anniversary. I have a great picture of me, my sister and my baba and geed. What a great memory. That is what matters right? I'm not sure because this is the first time that I ever lost someone so close to me. After I found out I was looking at all the pictures I had of me and him that I did for the powerpoint pres at the anniversary. Always a smile and drink to be had. I know this is were I get my happy and fun personality. The apple does not fall from the tree.

Saturday is the funeral and I think I may be doing an eulogy.

I am also dedicating my first 1/2 marathon on August 7 in his honor. What more motivation do I need......

I had a lot to do today but found the best place to be was with my friends. All I know is that love never dies...Never. I will see him on the other side. Being the good Ukrainian he is, I sure he is having a drink and something to eat in a better place.

My thoughts for the moment are summed up best as follows by Our Lady Peace.

I don't wanna understand this horror
there's a weight in your eyes I can't admit
everybody ends up here in bottles
but the name tags are the last thing you wanted
as the world explodes you fall out of it
and you can't let go because this
will not go away.....
there's a house built out in space

and can't see the thief that lives inside of your head
but I can be some courage at the side of your bed
and I don't know what's happening and I can't pretend
but I can be all, be all

someone help us understand who ordered
this disgusting arrangement of time and the end
I don't wanna hear who walked on water
cause the hallways are empty, clocks tick
as the world implodes we fall in to it
and we cant go home because this
will not go away.....
there's a house built out in space

and I cant see the thief that lives inside your head
but I can be some courage at the side of your bed
and I don't know what's happening and I can't pretend
it's a long, long get away, it's a long, long get away
make it home again, make it home again
it's a long, long get away, it's a long, long get away

and I cant see the thief that lives inside your head
but I can be some courage at the side of your bed
and I don't know what's happening and I can't pretend
but I can be all, be all i'm here
but I can be all, be all i'm here
it's a long, long get away

Last night I had a ball game (It was on the radio without me) and I ended up playing for the other team because they only had 8 guys. I volunteered for the second time this season to play with another team due to injury or 8 players.

I am well on my way to winning utility player. Think about it, 3 positions, 3 teams and radio announcer. Isn't it obvious?

Neat dream last night about me returning home to see people who I have not seen forever. Funny thing was, and being modest, I looked great in my dream. I will have to see what this interprets. Karma has been keeping me busy and out of trouble, maybe this is a sign of something from the past popping up or past adventures appearing again.

Make life easier..........

Good things happen to good people,
Never walk away from a door that is knocking,
Life is not about making money, acquiring power or recognition,
Stop and smell that flower the next time you walk by,
Anticipate upcoming events,
Don't visit any garden parties,
Take more pictures,
Think with your head after consulting your heart,
Call your mom and
Smile

Ok worst game ever witnessed by myself at Taylor Field. In two games we have scored a total of 20 points. The rider nation is retreating for some reason. We need to pick it up and play like the team we could of been last year. The only thing good about today's game was the company however that did not last long enough as meetings on Sundays should be illegal. Yuck... windy weather, rider loss and poor attented game.

That is all i'm gonna say because it hurts.

Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Ok so that last post was very true with my life being super busy. Had a hard time finding sleep let along posting. I'm back and wow lots has happened.

Today I was 12 years old. I mean it. Went to a friends place and set up a trampoline. Just like the one I had on the farm. Ummm had my own airing of girls on trampolines. So much fun and ended up laying on the trampoline watching the stars under a blanket. Now some might say why, but let me include that there was two guys and two girls spooning on a trampoline. Nothing but conversation but still it was so much fun. Like is said felt like a sleep over or something but I never want to lose the innocence or giggling of a child.

Yesterday was a blur. Up at 5:00 am to go golfing. Great day for golf and I realized how much I enjoy golfing but it reaffirmed my decision to give it up to run. I'm a much better runner than golfer. I can golf when i'm 50 anyways. Back to Moose Jaw for my ball game. I had a nap inbetween and woke up in the most confused state but figured out were I was. Our first lost of the season tonite and then I had to play again as one of the teams had 9 guys and and injury. Played great defensively all night and the bat was good.

Then down to sidewalk days. Ahh sidewalk days. Beer Garden on Main Street with a rockin band. Me dancing it up and doing my russian dance. Sorry Sidewalk days have to be experienced and no bit of journalism can describe how much fun it is.

One a personal note I had to mix business and friendship and I did not like it. However it is always best to think with your head instead of your heart.

Riderville tomorrow and I have a great person to share my ticket with. Go Green Go.

Is it possible to be so busy that you actually feel alone? I looked at my calendar today and it was still on April. Watching in slow motion? Maybe but when life is good it sure feels great to enjoy it with someone. I think that is what I am missing in life right now. I need that someone special to thank at my acceptance speech. I wish I could share all the special moments in my life. Someone to meet me at the finish line, laugh at me from listening to the radio and steal the covers. Talked to an angel today on the phone and she sounded fantastic. Funny how time can move so fast but something special like a great conversation with a great person can stop it on a dime. Hope is such a powerful feeling. No worries just thoughts I guess.

I don't know, something to think about. I think I need to go for a run...

Two hours thirteen minutes and 14 seconds of aerobic activity. Yup I finished my first duathalon and finished 3rd in my division.

Race highlights...had a great 5km pace at 26 minutes which translates to a 52 minute 10km race, 2 minutes better than last time. After 3 days of rain, the trail was super slippery and greasy. My favorite part was a virtual oil slick so no speed was made at all in the bike part. Second 5 km was great felt fantastic and had lots to kick with at the end.

Over all very happy with myself and the conditions. Just finished getting all the mud of my bike, shoes and me. All I can say is that the next 10km race on July first is going to be a low 50's and the marathon is looking like a 2:10.

ok, rest time and my body needs it. Feeling ok but legs are a little sore. Thanks to all of those who motivated me, and you know who you are!

Ok in the past little while been faced with 2 challenges, 10 km run....no problem, teach grade 7 & 8 for an entire morning or afternoon....done and done with success. Tomorrow is another physical test and challenge #3. Moose Jaw 4th Annual Duathalon. Run, Bike, Run....have fun. I'm leaving the watch off because all i want is to finish strong. Have no idea what my time will be but somewhere over two hours would be great.

So true about body over mind. I already have my modivation in my head.

Yesterday and today was all about resting. Had the presence of a female friend in the house today and it is so nice to have someone else around sometimes. To everyone out there come on over whenever.

Good Luck to me, my sacouny shoes, iron horse bike and my mind.

Since when were you able to sleep in class, be late and not come back after recess? Not sure but that is what happened in my Grade 7/8 presentations today in the morning. 23 desk and 10 kids, interesting to say the least and we wonder why are kids are in trouble. Afternoon went much better

Ball cancelled due to rain again and I'm feeling the effects of my training last night. I'm all set for Sunday's big race. Hope the rain lets the trail dry out a little so it is not too slick. My motivation is all over the place. Some call me crazy but it's just a crazy little thing called love. I love doing it.

On a side note a grade 8 girl asked me if I was married or had a girlfriend. Isn't that sweet.

Last night I was colour for a fastball game on the radio. It was great. Just talking about the game giving my opinions and working with the radio. If you can believe it they even gave $20.00 for talking about fastball. Then another win to make us 6-0.

So to add another feather in my hat, talking to my hair dresser friend and she said the girls at the salon were checking me out the other day when I went for lunch.

So my blog throws me for a loop every now and then. I talk to people and they know what is going on in my life and I have not actually talked to them. A neat feeling that people are interested in my life. What's new with me, well lets see, duathalon on sunday, training for a half marathon, ball team is undefeated and doing color on the radio. No way you will hear nothing new with me. Best part is I don't have to talk about the weather or work.

Tune in next time for more compelling stories and your daily dose of play at this site.

So last tuesday my game was on the radio. After a weekend conversation witha radio personality, he called me today and asked to do color for tonites game. Life is full of opportunity and tonite I will be doing color for a fastball game. It is going to be fun. Look out 90.9 FM.

Ok listening to a little Pink Floyd and it hits the spot tonite. In other news big fire in Moose Jaw that we witnessed playing pool dt. Wore my "Lucky" shirt and am 3-0 in it. To bad it did not rub off on the flames. Oh well there is only one team that can be Canada's team and that is the Riders. After all they are the "heart of a nation". Just look around. You will see rider fans all over the place. Remember all people smile in the same language.

So crazy me started thinking. Is it possible to have a bad karma place? I mean I think a hill in Wakamow has it in for me. First I propose on this hill and everything fell apart, then I ride my bike up this hill and it literally falls apart. Can't wait to kick karma in the ass on Sunday in a time of 2 hours and 15 minutes. You heard it here first!

For everyone reading FYI you can't break my stride. Rain today, sorry, work, sorry, rumours of my actions at the bar, sorry, using me to as somekinda of revenge, sorry. Not going to happen. Why because I'm a glass half full kinda guy. Talk all you want my motto is and always will be to have fun.

I'm focusing on my great conversation with my favorite red head in the world, my green thumb and more training with my new bike. If anybody is worrying about me they are sawing sawdust.

Never ask why and remember life is all about how you react to it. I learned long ago never get in a fight with a fool or an ugly person. They have nothing to lose.

The only thing I really want is an excursion around the bay!

So I've decided that life is a garden. My garden in the backyard to be exact. It takes time to make it grow. Problem is I can't control everything like the rain and the sun. Such is life. I can work on the problems but cannot control them. Then there is the weeds. The entire garden is covered in weeds. I need to do some serious work and look at the whole and get frustrated. I need to look at the individual rows and start small. Every problem can be solved by simply starting. Don't Get to frustrated by the entire project. Just think of life as a row in the garden. Once you get the problem solved or the row weeded, move on. Thing happen at there own pace and we must not get caught up in things happening right now. Just think what the reward it. My garden also teaches me a virtue of life. That being patience. Anything important in life is worth waiting for. In the meantime I'm going to enjoy the blooms.

Ok so I have been up for 25 hours right now. Went all night at the relay for life. Verdict....fun! had a good team that did not bail and hung out and talked to people I have not seen in a while. Much better than last year and the fashion show "tits and gliz" was VERY entertaining. All I can say is that my buddy asked me to take his bra off tonite. I hope I never hear those words again from a guy! I was not really tired and still am not. My body sure is. Some how in the blink of an eye a day just passed and the details are kinda blurry. Maybe that is the way my brain functions. Memory was turned off to keep the body awake. All the brain was sending but not receiving? Who knows but never under estimate the feeling of taking you shoes and socks off after they have been on for 25 hours.

I'm going to have a nice long nap and when I'm ready to take on the world all I can say is go flames go!

My reputation as a human jukebox still remains!

Ok the events of yesterday seemed like a week. What happened? Well, I have everything in point form:

- Went to Regina and did two RespectED presentation to a grade 6/7 class and a grade 8 class in the morning and afternoon.
-Back to work to check all my messages and scheduled an interview
-Went for bike training in Wakamow Valley, during this I managed to break my bike in two going down a hill thank god.
-Went shopping for a new aluminum frame bike and bought exactly what I wanted (love line of credit)
-Watched some of the hockey game
-Made myself a pirate costume from stuff I had in my house for this weekend
-Played ball and won 3-1

Yeah what a day, full of fun, disappointment and victory. Huge play day for sure. There is something about bruises on the body that signify achievement. Mine is an example of that

Played third base for the first time as a Jet last night and I quite enjoyed the hot box. Lots of action and felt good. Hit the ball well and even had the post game interview with the radio. Like I'm not on the radio enough with work, still a different light for sure.

Don't have to much to say tonite other than my new found love of yogurt. Yup my blog has come down to yogurt. I think it is time to seek some drama. Well on that I do have a date for the football game in 2 weeks. That is much more exciting than yogurt hey.

If it doesn't get rained out, my ball game is being broadcasted over the radio. Wow the big time I guess.