Making Time to Play

Yesterday and today I just felt lucky. I had this feeling that I can't explain. It does not come very often but when it does lookout. It started will pool last night as me being a low level three beat a high ranking seven. I had luck to beat him but I still had a feeling I was going to win. So with this luck I head off to the casino and managed to win a nice pot. Last spin of the roulette table I figure hey lets bet big on 27 and boom it hits. I went home quite happy.

So to extend my luck I did my first every luck transplant to someone who need a lift. I think it worked but as with all things the more you give the more you get back and payback is 10 fold.

Today was a jem and included another run and a great day overall. Ordinary but great no the less. My lucky cup runneth over and I'll share with you anytime. Maybe my luck will work this weekend and bring in some lucky drama. With luck on your side why worry?

Well I'm back from my weekend at home. The weekend was great and I needed to be home as it was not what it could of been. I was suppose to go to Edmonton to see a hockey game, shopping and a trip with my sweetie. Enter hammer and meet my heart. So I glad that my sister enjoyed the weekend and that it turned out for the best. I tell you tickets seem to be my enemy. So many problems in my life have revolved around tickets, from airplane, concert and sporting events.....tickets have caused me such pleasure and such pain.

I had so much time to reflect on live this weekend and it is basically pretty simple. It is all about living your life. Being on the farm you basically have two choices, live or die. Sounds kinda morbid but that is the way nature works. I saw all kinds of evidence of this. Something just are not meant to happen and they die while others survive and are meant to be. This can be applied to all things in life but rest assured nothing is so simple and need effort to stay alive. I found myself being jealous of things this weekend and once again I found out i know what I want in life....I just need to find it.

Two songs felt like they were written for me again... Feel by Robbie Williams and Saliva's Rest in Pieces. I have too much life running through my veins going to waste and would you find it in your heart to make it go away
and let me rest in pieces? I think I'm feeling fine just dealing with a heart that has been broken and has been fixed. However some of the mended pieces still are full of emotion that is triggered by a song, a scent or a memory. My drive today was magic as the stars were perfect. Last time I was home I had company. Sometimes it is nice to have someone to share with and the drive home was one of them.

Ok enough of this. I was spoiled all weekend and like it. I like it a lot. I guess I will keep spoiling myself this week. You know what? I can because god helps those who help themselves and when you are looking for a helping hand....look at the end of your arms.

Meetings, presentation, schedules, deadlines, phone calls, emails.......goodbye! I am going home to the farm this weekend for 4 days or bliss, serenity and family. It is just what the doctor ordered. More time to reflect on life and it is the only place were the clock means nothing. A place were we work on sunlight and the air is so clean so want to bottle it up. This is escalated with a roadtrip with a new CD and it is so nice outside that the sunroof is going to be opened

I found another song that I can connect to. Time slips away. Sung by many people, all with the same meaning. I was stopped in my tacks when I heard this song because I had the exact same conversation with a girl who loved me long ago. It is funny how time slips away. Such comfort I felt. It is fitting because this weekend was suppose to be a romantic getaway. It is funny how time slips away.

Anyways...get your motor running....heading on the highway!

A simple life for me!

I got on the right bus yesterday. After much reflecting on Monday, Tuesday was a fantastic day. A massive presentation were I was referred to an expert in the field. All I can say is that I was not intimidated by 40 strangers who actually paid to listen to me talk. A fantastic opportunity with fantastic results. Once again my attitude and vibrant self shows when I talk (that was in the evaluations). What a difference from the weekend Scott.

To add to the day I had a fantastic time with my favorite to be married couple. Stress never seems to leave them but they always make life fun and a pure joy to be around. Great supper and I wish I could of spent the entire night with them in the city.

To top the day off.....I was sent a gift in the mail from an angel in the east. I knew it was going to come yesterday....I just new it. We have some kind of connection I guess. Newfoundland doesn't seem that far away sometimes.

Life is such a teacher and I can't believe how Karma can kick you in the ass but also bring sun shine on your face. You can't have the rainbow without the storm clouds. Am I'm being a little sappy today...maybe but that is what happiness does to you.

Every wonder if you maybe got on the wrong bus with life. You think everything is right and then you get there and it is not what you planned. You were at the right bus stop but you ended up at this spot and your not sure how. Did I make a bad decision, did I get bad advice, did I read the map wrong, is someone out to help me? I felt this way this today. My mind was just not there and I was thinking how did I get to this point in my life? Did I get on the right bus. I mean I think so but maybe I just need something to let me know that I'm just getting my transfer to my final destination. I must admit I've like some of the routes but not them all

Tomorrow is a huge day for me. It is one fair that I'm glad I paid, for lets see how it goes.

By the way I was a winner tonite but my team was a loser. Does that mean I'm still a loser?

"I'll love you forever" is once again a evil ploy and rum is no longer in my vocabulary!

I was really gonna behave last night really, I was, no really. I had it all planned out. Relax, do some reps and enjoy my new GBS dvd. They the phone range and I can't say no to trouble. Especially when i know it would be a good time. So a few drinks later and 1:00 am meal I made it home

my car was not at home however nothing like a good long run to get you back in the swing of things and to burn off some calories. I will try to behave tonight but i think i need to cease the day as the days are worth ceasing because my ship is coming in:

And I say way-hey-hey, it's just an ordinary day
and it's all your state of mind
At the end of the day,
you've still got to say... it's all right.

It's a beautiful day, but there's always some sorrow
It's a double edged knife, but there's always tomorrow
It's up to you now if you sink or swim,
Keep the faith and you're ship will come in.

I finally finished my list! check it out at the top right!

I was called a up and coming star tonite at a meeting. It was a great meeting with great food and great people. It also ended with a pint. Years ago i felt like I knew everything with all this energy. Now I know a lot of things but not everything and this energy has been channeled. Once again takes someone else to tell you who you are sometimes.

Here is my random thought, I don't like boring people but I'm sure boring people don't like me either. Opposite sides of the scale. They probably call me loud or annoying. So my thought is that in every place we need lounge lizards that are happy to sit and we need dance freaks that hate to sit. Both can't understand each other but need each other to complete the puzzle. Were do we fit. All depends.

My weekend is shaping up to be pretty quiet I think. However I have a phone number to some who said her name was "I'll love you forever." We'll see

Oh what a day in the middle of Saskatchewan. Such a celebration at the only little irish bar in town. Not really sure how good it was because i never made it inside. We spend the duration in the tent outside. I must admit it was full of atmosphere and felt like somekind of festival. Green Beer for everyone. Went for a bite to eat at the another place that used to be the place to go on st. patty's day and it was dead. Oh well the food was good. So back to Bobby's to hear the third set of a local band and still stand in the tent. Ahh the luck of the irish!

I had all the irish luck given to me i needed with a sweet little email from my favorite irish girl!

I did a bad thing again. I started asking why. Why are people in certain relationships that make no sense. Why do people crave relationships. Some people give, some people take and some people are just plain lucky. Why is it that certain indivduals stay in relationships when then know it is not the best situation. Do they believe they can change people, is it that they can't be lonely, is it then have just settled in life, counted their chips and make due with what they have or do they crave companionship?

Like I said i asked why and there is no answer to my question. On the other hand i see what makes a relationship work and it brings balance again to know that for every rainy day the sun shines as well. Life presents itself in different colors for us to decide what matches and what clashes.

Stories hey....life's little lessons that we should all share. My story continues but i have not written the happy ending yet.

I'm not sure you could write or think of a better script that saturday night. S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y ! Where to begin. After much needed rest, and a long workout again I was all ready for the night. Started at a steak night, were we had the worst waitress and we seemed to confuse her by not having a tab. After getting spanked at pool, went to the Royal early to scope out the scene and get a stamp. Here is were things get interesting....went to a wedding that i had no idea who got married. I knew the family and the bride's sister but that was it. When I got there, I sure knew alot of people. Very entertaining.

Back downtown for Men without Shame Version 2. Great again and the words to each song just rolled of my tounge. Shots, rum and dancing was the story. It was as we were leaving that things got very interesting. I had a personal invitation to the "clubhouse" from a women who i just met and then I was ummm "surrounded" by these two girls who remember me from a party two years ago. I have not seen them since then but it was July 6, 2002. If anyone knows what that date means, then i think you may have a good idea of why i made an impression. home for a drink and music. then safely to bed. I have the best co-workers you could ask for. they really are great

"Women will be the death of me, but i can't think of a better or more expensive way to go"

and as for sunday....well scott resested on the seventh day.

Ok I will be the first to admit that I am a great flirt. I must say that I have the tools to make this happen. The smile, the shake and the courage. For whatever reason I seem to have the ability to pay attention to the small things and that goes along way. Also knowing every word to every song played in a bar has a remarkable effect on women. A good dancer is a gift that I have to share with the world and I take advantage of it.

Tonite I was entertained by men without shame and it was fantastic. I had a great time dancing and all I can say is that age means nothing. It is all about you heart and how you feel. Everyone has so much to offer and we must take advantage of the moment. Your feelings are not wrong as long as your head is still working.

time is on your side....not matter how old you are.

Well the weekend is pretty much here and without the problem of another blizzard tomorrow, the weekend is going to be fun fun fun. Unlike last month, I'm looking forward to the summer. Plans are being made and the build up is heating up. Tonite we went out to play some golf and my friend asked me were my big screen tv was. My simple response was I don't watch a lot of tv (sports yes) and I would rather do that watch. I still have that option.

I'm so sore right now. To much exercise finally caught up to me. Legs, shoulders and arms hurt. No such luck with my abs though. If you have ever have had stiff abs, I feel for you. Worst pain is sneezing...could not even breath when that happens.

There is nothing better in the world then starting you day of on a good note. I'm expecting an email tomorrow morning to start the weekend off just as it should.

were should I run this weekend? forward is my guess. these times are contagious

Emotions sometimes get the best of us and each of us deal with this things differently. One way I deal with things that stress me out is exercise or sing/dance. What I do not do is cry. I experienced someone starting to cry today as emotions got the best of them. Is this weakness or just a defence. Does it make a difference that it was a women? Maybe but it seems kinda senseless to cry over what we were talking about. Sure it was not easy but don't cry it's not worth it. Easy for me to say on the other hand.

As for fear well when deadlines hit and well that is when I get cracking. Do I work best under stress...yes and no. Diamonds are created under great stress but remember most diamonds are used in cutting tools and few make it to your finger.

So I found some drama and not what I was looking for. On the other hand I did learn that someone was "asking about me". aww shucks

my advice for myself and for anyone who cares is always try something or ask. This way you can't regret it. Few people regret trying something even if the find out it is not for them...but if you don't try...well welcome to regretville.

Have I got a long way to run? Tell me which way to go because I just seem to be going in the same direction. God helps those who help themselves, so it is time to pick up the pace. Why state the obvious? because sometimes it takes someone else to tell you what you should of told yourself long ago. Life cannot be planned it happens. I think it is funny for people to say that they are going to be married by 25, then kids by 30 and then retire when they are 55. Good luck with those plans because so much is dependent on things you cannot control like the mind and heart of the opposite sex. This all became clearer to me last night on a road trip and with great conversation. Some people always justify what life is like right now is how they planned it. Well mine is not and I think it would boring if everything always worked out....I think I will leave it at that.

Last night's trip was great and brings so much excitement to the summer. Much need excitement that only happens once every four years. It is like seeing a comet, you need to make the most out of it and I certainly will.

Funny revelation tonite. Three single guys sitting at the bar and we started talking about the summer ball team. My remark was we needed girls and the remark was that is the story of our lives...we need girls to play with. Ha, such is true but you can't throw a team or relationship together. It needs some work.

No drama in my life but one of my friends took her car for a role on saturday. She is ok but that is not what she needed right now. I called her for pool and that is the least of our worries.

Speaking of pool, our team is in first place for the first time ever and have the chance to go to vegas to play pool in august. Will this happen. Not to sure but as always dare to dream! Viva Las Vegas!!!

Well it is official, September 12 I'm running 22.1 km. I set the goal a while ago and now after a purchase of new shoes, i'm all set. Today included 1 hour of cardio along with another hour of unexpected skating. Tuesday i probably will not be able to walk. I feel like taking a before and after picture of myself as things are gonna change and change for the better. Maybe the rest of my body will match my calves.

As for the weekend well toss it up to experience i guess. Friday was exactly what i wanted. Drinks and a easy night. Saturday I had to work at the mall in the health fair (boring) then after a few drinks and the casino...i called it a night. It just did not feel right even after the invitation from a very good looking blonde. I just felt like i had no luck saturday gambling both money and people. Fun but uneventful. Still working on Drama...i think we may have some in store for the future. Actually I guarantee it

Sunday was an absolutely day of me. Playtime to the fullest. A win with an empty net goal today.....One word....Serenity

Today my life was full of everything but drama. Had my head ringing again with information and it scared and excited me. A trip to "the city" and drinks with some colleagues proved quite rewarding and served up reflection. I spent about 1/2 hour in a thinking daze today.

I think I need some drama in my life, something to make me nervous and my stomach talk to me. This sounds like a new adventure. My hat is in the ring. Sometimes no matter how positive I think, memories, time, smell and places get the best of me. Only love can break your heart afterall. Now i'm not looking for serious drama but just some excitement in the dating game. Everything else in life is taking off so lets invite all the players into the game.

Life is waiting for you. It's all messed up but we'll survive.

I have to post about this article I read in the current issue of GQ. It is basically titled "Why Men Lie." The basis of it two reasons, one to get away with things and two to stop women from making up there own story and to make life easier. The first one is easy and understandable but the second had me thinking. Men lie so they do not half to defend their selves for every action. As I was reading this I thought, this is not a male/female thing. It is all about the relationship you are in. Everyone lies and I believe we should leave it at that. It all comes back to what I believe is needed in every healthy relationship truth and trust. If you have this then lying will not be worth a four page article in GQ. (I did like the new stripe shirts and summer shoes though)

Went to Club Dread last night and it was what I expected and not what I expected. Many laughs but it was a slasher movie with a psycho murderer. It made fun of all those classic horror movies. The funniest thing about the whole night was the movie stopped twice in the middle. Total darkness. My friend commented on how it felt like a small town theatre when the film would actually burn. Ohwell free movies next time.

By the way I'm not lying about any of this.

Today I saved four lives. How you ask. Quite simple I donated blood. Is it crazy to volunteer to have someone stick a needle in you? Maybe but it sure feels good 54 days from now when someone calls you and asks you to donate again. Fit as a fiddle is this guy. It kinda relates to what I was saying about giving is better than getting. I hope I never need to cash in at the blood bank.

How do you talk to an angel...well i think it is easy because they are all around us. pick up the phone, say hi or just smile and you will talk to an angel. I see them and talk to them all the time.

I'm feeling stellar again. Great conversation had again and my creative juices are flowing as I'm working on a special gift for a special friend. hmmmm playtime with crafts. start the commotion.

I'm not giving my power to anyone else but I'm sure gonna share.

I was able to sleep in today and go to work at 1:00 pm. Was very weird. Work is still busy with all kinds of things going on. I'm gonna be busy at technical play for a while.

After work went for wings on zero notice. I love this freedom. Then pool were i was good tonite, should of been better but still i was good. I had great conversation with my chums from work and felt connected tonite. Heard all about the Mardi gras that i missed on Saturday in Moose Juice. Oh well. next year i guess

In other news heard that my friend had a afternoon date today. Sounds like it was good and i'm smiling because i've been promising something big for her. Sounds like the world is shining today. I understand when people say that giving is better that getting. I hope everyone can understand that someday.

We have only this moment and good things happen to good people