Making Time to Play

Last night went for a pasta night and then downtown. Happened to be bad bar girls at the royale and they were very very bad.....which means very very good. This was not the plan but hey go with the flow right.

Off to Weyburn for Summer games and i smell trouble. Roadtrip on a friday afternoon with great people. Let the good times roll.

I added some new links and i will fix my 100 things about me for all you new subscribers.

As gordie says,

The rest of the world becomes a gift shop

Yesterday I was on the front cover of the newspaper in full color. My face, my name and my phone number included. Yes that was me on the exercise bike being the poster boy for in motion, the new provincial physical activity strategy. Catch me if you can!

Life is so unassuming. Sometime I never know what is going on and sometime I’m in total control of everything. Life doesn’t care which one I’m working with because it just happens. Sounds like a lot of people just don’t care about things until it becomes a problem. Reactive to say the least….I need to work on my proactivity. More than ever I am not a follower and I must learn that the people that score the goals are the one's with the puck on their stick. If you want something done give it to someone who is busy. So true and things are always given to me. I’m beginning to see a world of best interest personalities and I don’t like it. I also found another thing that turns me off with people and women…greed….try to understand the lyrics to “Roses” by Outkast and you will see a bigger picture.

Ok rant over and here is my new meaning of life. I still believe in give more/expect less but I like this better and it this sums things up in my own mind. The longer I live the more I realize the impact of attitude is more important that events. It is more important that the past, than education, than money, than circumstance, than failures, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important that appearance or skill. It will break an office, a home or a team. The remarkable thing is that I have a choice everyday with my attitude. I cannot change the past, I cannot change the way people act and I cannot change the inevitable. The only thing I can do is play the hand dealt to me and that is my attitude. Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.

It is funny what I come up with on a run. Everything starts with a strong mind and attitude. Write that down.

Not sure why and who this is directed at but I can’t get this song out of my head. Thought I’d share this with anyone feeling wanted right now.

Big Sugar
I Want You Now

Half-awake in the morning
I want you now
This feeling greets me without warning
I want you now
Sunlight dancing on my curtain
I want you now
My state remains uncertain
But I want you now

Lying in this bed for hours
And I ain't sick don't send me flowers
You can heal me with your powers
And I want you now

Some they steal something fractured
But I want you now
I'll bear the burden of my actions
Cause I want you now
Don't loose the feel of understanding
I've been a fool in all my glory
That's why I called to say I'm sorry
And I want you now

Ohh say guitar, say it one time for me
Mmhmm

Even the faithful can falter
But I want you now
That's why I'm kneeling at your alter
Cause I want you now
Don't loose the feel of understanding
Honey I don't see no comes for warning
I've been a fool in all my glory
That's why I've called to say I'm sorry
And I want you now
I want you now
I want you now
I want you now

All weekend it was so windy so no running took place. Tonite was the night. I prepared all day, ate right and took the challenge. 10 km today. Set myself up for a good test as the last 3 k were into the wind and ended with a steep hill to finish. Success 10 km done in 1 hour and 12 minutes. I am well on my way

To celebrate I entered a 10 km race on May 8. I am so very much looking forward to adding more distance and time as the summer comes. I'm proud of me. Legs feel great and the body isn't looking to bad either.

The mind is weak and
The body is strong
the mind says stop
but the body says go on.

There is a time and a place for everything in life. How we manage to put it all together is up to us. No matter what you are doing or how you are doing there will be a time and a place to make it happen.

Recently I have been faced with professional challenges that I seem to turn into huge rewards. It is funny that when teaching or presenting something I keep learning more about myself everytime. This weekend was full of this opportunity. I kinda like this consulting thing.

Saturday night was a first and a last for me. I went to a sex party and while I did not feel uncomfortable, the whole "come to the show and buy something" was just not my scene. I sum it up to a couples or women's kinda thing. However the one thing that I feel even more strongly about is my dislike for smokers. Yuk, the smell and caring around your pack just turns me right off. It was so evident last night

Best news is I will be hangout this summer with my unofficial sister more often. Let the good times roll.

and evidently i'm not going to Vegas to play pool...not this year anyways!

Just a perfect day

There is a great song on the trainspotting soundtrack by lou reed called perfect day. I recommend it to anyone with a smile on there face. Today was one of those and I keep me hanging on. one of those days when the only thing on the agenda was me. time well worth spent. no work and no meetings...nothing....problems left alone. utter bliss.

so what to do with a perfect day, coffee with friends, beautify the back yard, work on my zen garden, get out all the summer toys and most importantly BBQ. Yes that is right bbq burgers for lunch and tbone for supper. delightful!

I can't think of a better day spent all by myself. If the phone rings tonite....i'm not answering. my green thumb is starting to throb and my running shoes are calling.

you're gonna reap just what you sow.

Today was a terrible day at work. People were mad, crazy moody and even made people cry because of their lack of people skills. Then I had two meetings in after work and missed out on a outing with the gang.

it seemed like everytime I asked for a "penny for your thoughts" I got change!

So the only downfall to living with yourself is that when you go home there is no one to talk with. I had not eaten supper yet when I arrived home at 7:45 and was not in the best of moods but I new what I had to do. Run! I ran last night but tonite I had more energy then ever today. What a great stress relieve, after that I joined the crew for a drink and all is well. Everything was better after that and focus returned.

Stress...hmmm like water on a ducks back with me!

Well my roadtrips are over for 2 weeks. My house can tell that i've left it be all alone with no one to help it. Nothing beats a trip to Chaplin!

Saturday night in regina was great. good meal, great company, a little professional development and more dancing. Once again i made a good impression on a super cutie . My new outlook on life is working like gasoline on a fire. Another angel for sure but god helps those who help themselves and i'm not looking for any handouts. Got to spend a great day with my favorite couple again on the top floor of a hotel.

I was also asked to sit on another provincial board. I'm being recruited if you can believe it. It is going to take me a while to get use to being called and expert...something not so hard to accept.

Don't think i've been more excited about a hockey game all year like tonite. Go flames, go habs and go sens! If you think like a winner and act like a winner....winning finds you!

Were to start, were to start. It is Saturday and I have no idea where the last two days went. Went to speedy creek on Thursday and for a great meeting and an even better evening. Funny things happens when a group of people get together. Playtime times 10 happens and nothing is out of the question. Thursday night consisted of supper, bowling (I bowled 245 by the way!), shuffleboard, darts, pool, shots, pub crawl, two stepping, a polka, karaokee and dancing. Not to mention a massive amounts of drinks. It was two guys and two girls. Now it never hurts to have two attractive girls with you. It is surprising how many people come and talk to you, buy you drinks and invite you to their table. One "dude" was more than happy to talk to us and a few others were happy to try "we are from microsoft doing computer upgrades and in town for business" regulars. It was too funny. Only problem was that a meeting all morning is not good with your ears ringing, no sleep and drinkin lots of water.

Last night was more of the same. I did not know if I was going to make it as we went for steak early downtown. Well I managed to get in touch with my emotions and make it until they kicked us out of the bar. I was comfortably numb for sure. Once again heard a great band at the bar and danced and danced and danced. I was called a great dancer again and lots of fun. My desire to play was evident. More great conversation and an interesting ride home.

So this weekend I met two angels. Yes they do exist and I'm not talking about a physical angel, just angels to give you hope and make the world a better place. We live in a beautiful world and they make sure we realize it. One was what I am looking for in a the opposite sex. Basically shows me that there is lots of good out in the world and they can magically appear. The other one was very confident in herself and very fun. We had no objective other than to enjoy the night and dance. It also helped that we were both checking out the girls.

I was hugged a lot last night and the group made the observation that I was surround by girls all the time. Hmmm funny thing happens when you expect less and give more. I have finally ended listening to take a bow and other sad songs. I was driving and for what ever reason (it was like a switch) I just said forget this and bring on the good times. No more sad stories for me but more drama for sure. It just follows me around.

Last two days score a 9.5 on the play meter with day 3 to come tonite.

I'm beginning to see with my heart and not with my eyes.

I went for the longest run in my life yesterday and it felt great. I'm getting addicted to running. It has alot to do with my ability and the great tunes in my ears from my mp3. Whenever the Vines kick in my pace increases. 7 km in 47 minutes (that is a pace for my 2 1/2 hour goal) and i'm going to push for 10 km on the weekend. I'll be half way to my goal and i have until September!

Found out that i still believe in a thing called love. Saw "The girl next door" last night and it was a teenage love story but still it had all the elements in life that I have experienced. Love, lose, moral fiber, blind ambition and trust. Once again life is all about "effort"

That is my spin on it anyways. Take it or leave it . I feel I'm ahead in the count right now.

I own a time machine and it only takes a three hour drive. By the way it only works for me as well. Time never seems to pass when I go home. 10 years ago and things still seem the same. Chores, meals and the house never change. I don't want it to. It is like the foundation that built me and it is as solid as ever. I always get the feeling of being in high school again or enjoying spending the summer in university when I go home. I guess it is the only place right now that I feel loved.

I saw family this Easter weekend that I have not seen for a while. It was great and made me think a little more. We all have the moment in time when we see each other and then we move on. Some where along the road we end up again and get to compare notes. Some always has so much to say while others enjoy what they have. I'm not quite sure where I fit. I'm still searching.

Had a very interesting conversation about death this weekend. I figure if I'm gonna go just pull the plug and salvage what you can. Everything will not be lost as I have had a great life. Funny how I can simply deal with this as another decision. This will not be the case when it actually happens. But hey I have 73 year left so what's the worry

The biggest positive note was that no relationship broke up this weekend. Not that there was one but the last two easters have not been kind and two years ago was terrible. No way to describe the feeling of coming home and everything you had was gone. Both physical and mental. If you can believe it I found comfort in Madonna and Take a Bow. A beautiful song for a ugly event

all the world is a stage
and everyone has their part
but how was I to know which way the story goes
how was I to know you'd break
you'd break, you'd break, you'd break
you'd break my heart

i've always been in love with you
(always with you)
I guess you've always known its true
(known its true)

you took my love for granted
why oh why
this show is over say goodbye
say goodbye
(goodbye)
say goodbye

Last night met my expectations and threw in a few surprises and disappointments. Well not really disappointments but everyone needs to make decisions with their best interest. Turned my basement into a bar with lights included. We place quarter bounce for a while and it took its toll on a few lightweights. I think the best way to describe any relationship is to consider it a new book. Each one has all kinds of chapters. Some good some bad.

Downtown was fun again and talked to all kinds of people. It was a first as we had to leave one wounded soldier at my place and continue the night without her.

Great playday.

My drive home today was immaculate. Sunshine combined with Coldplay and Motley Crue. Quite the combo.

As for me well I'm home on the range were I get to play.

I think today has all the components to be a successful playday. Not sure what is to come of it but this long weekend is already off to a great start. I have found that energy and enthusiasm is contagious. Me being one of these people always finds a way. They say misery loves company...well so does bliss.

Does anyone else wanna play?

Some people can be described in one word that means a lot of different things. Moody. Someday good somedays bad and someday both. No offense but I see this is women more then men. Today I was subjected to moodiness from all kinds of sides and I find it confusing and I don't like it. However i have to live with it. How to survive, humour yourself and reflect in the silliness that it is.

I also don't like people who act different when there "partner" is around. It seems that some people are way more fun when they are out by themselves. I think that we should not have different versions of ourselves just different gears. That is the way I try to be but I know that I've faced this problem in the past and failed this test. However I've learned that we need to look in the same direction not at each other. Just a thought but the situation always determines the outcome. You can't always plan for the moment. What fun would that be?

best quote of the day is that "sometimes we need to lose sight of the shore line to discover new oceans." Heave away me jolly heave away!

Friday night I was out with a friend who informed me her boyfriend posted a cupid.com personal as a joke. She found this out and was not impressed even if it was a joke. So I decided to check out cupid.com. Why not maybe I will know someone. Umm yes I did. The first person to appear on the screen with a picture was my recent ex girlfriend. I was like woa. What is up with this. It was a recent post to. So of course I had to read it and it made me think again. What she wanted was what I have, how she describe herself was not all accurate. I'm not sure how to feel about this initially however the words desperate and confused seemed to describe what I saw. People can change right before your eyes. It also made me miss her in a way of always having that permanent dance partner in life. Not her specifically but someone to wake up to in the morning. Once again Karma works in mysterious ways.

Everyone's self perception is quite unique but I believe that others define who you are. It all goes back to my motto of that hardest thing for a fish to understand is that it lives in water. This was a true case of that.

It was really nice to actually talk to real people this weekend. I will leave my online dating experience at what it is....very little. I can't use my smile on the internet.

My oh my what a day yesterday was. I was so tired today because I totally worked myself yesterday.

So after a good time friday I had to get my car. Bike ride indeed. What a way to start the morning that a Bike ride with a sore mind and body. Then off to a two hour ball practice then a six km run. All before 2:00 pm. I am a machine and no way that I could ever have an atkins diet as I so need some carb fuel for my lifestyle. Once I recovered the rest of the night starts

Had a visit from a great gal from work who is back in swing of things after a accident. Painkillers and 4 weeks of recovery put here in the mood to have fun. Steak night and then dancing. I was a little disappointed with some who didn't show up but I got over it very quickly. Then again I'm still looking for someone who can keep up with me. (I have references if you want further details). I even managed to cuddle with a sweetheart but not in the trunk like last time (that is a whole other story) I has fun barhopping and then I found some permanent dance partners. A cutie from work, her friend and a girl from Newfoundland. Perfect partners. Danced my ass of and burnt more calories. I think I lost five pounds. Late night for sure and the promise of future fun. Like is said a good news game day for sure. Only problem is smokers...I will see how that turns out.

Today was a great example of pure hedonism. Today was mine and I used it how I wanted. As for my luck well it was a great run but it had to fun out. It did tonite playing pool. This week I will use my skill and mind. The lucky glass is recharging. I may need it during Easter as the last two Easters have not been kind on my heart.

This weekend I would not trade in my single playing card for anything.

Yeah! Come and get me!

Ha ha. Tonite was great. My day at work was terrible and people can be just stupid somedays. As for me well playtime was in full effect. Lots of great conversation with a girl who is back to the blonde I know and love. I played the worst pool ever tonite but that was not the goal. All you that are reading this I remind you that you cannot judge anyone's relationship because you will never understand why it is happening. Everone needs something so just leave it at that. No questions and no whys. Remember expect less and give more.

As for this cowboy, well I could write a better script for my life but I don't think I could write a happier one. Things could be better but not much. My life can be summed up with one word.......freedom. No excuses for me as I have nothing to hold me down. In essences I have total freedom!

This weekend has started off just as planned with no plans made. Like I said one word freedom. Try it out I guarantee you will like.


ps. Hi Heidi, I understand you are a fan and I miss talking to you!

Why do I love Moose Jaw? because it is cheap to live here. Take last night...went out with some friends and i had an x-large pizza, wings, 2 beer and hour of pool and then went to a movie and it cost me 14 bucks! How was this possible. Well we won the pizza and the rest of the food and drink were just cheap. The movies was free because last time i went the movie fell off the reel twice so a free movies was awarded. What a night.

To top it off went to see Starchy and Hutch. Just what i needed but we were to only two in the movie. It was kinda like being in your living room but just on a really big screen.

The pieces to my puzzle are falling into place this weekend but i must remember two important things in life to be happy. Give More and Expect Less.

Playtime is in full effect.